How am I supposed to take this.....hmmm?

So a friend of mine, who shall remain nameless for the time being, sees me out a couple of weekends ago. We start talking, and I casually bring up the fact that this person has not added me on Facebook. I know what some of you are thinking, "Oh come on, it's just Facebook." Hello people! Wake up and smell the 3G network! Everyone and their mothers is on Facebook (except for mine, and I don't know that she's approve of my updates or even approve my friendship for that matter).

So this friend tells me that only a certain group of people are being added to this Facebook page. Now I won't mention which group of people that would be, as this also may stir up a little conroversy among those already on that page. So my reply, "Seriously? SERIOUSLY?? You've gotta be kidding me, right?" And in the back of my mind, I'm thinking that I'm probably one of the few friends this person has who doesn't place judgement, yet I find myself being judged.

It's disappointing, to say the least, but that doesn't mean we're not friends. I like this person, and I wish this person can see that they're liked as well, regardless of any decisions they've made in the past, or who they are now, or who they think they were then. That's not for me to judge, especially as a friend. I'm not perfect, and I don't expect anyone around me to be either.

So to this friend, I say: Let's just wait until the day you decide you need my friendship because maybe you need someone who believes in you, or maybe someone has turned their back on you, and you just need someone to lean on. Will you remember how you treated me as a friend? I don't think I could cast you aside, the same way you're doing now. I'm just saying.

What's going on KSAT???

No offense to Marcus or Robert, and I love the KSAT team, but seriously? I DO NOT like the fact that two officers from SAPD are reporting traffic.

It's not that they don't really know what they're talking about. My problem is that there are thousands of journalists out there that would kill for even something as belittleing as traffic reporting just to get in. WTF is Jim Jocelyn thinking (oh, did I even spell his name right? LOL)???

So here I sit wondering what the hell I'm going to do after graduation...send out another 50 tapes?? And for what, so that someone else can hire a teacher to do education reports, maybe hire a construciton engineer to report on...well, what else, construction???

It's just sad. It's a sad, sad thing. And I know there are bigger issues in the world right now, but it's just a little bit of injustice for me knowing that I still owe thousands for my undergrad and now even more as a grad student...and for what? To end up working retail? I don't think so.

Will someone please tell me where the world of journalism went wrong??? Nevermind, don't answer that....LOL

Much better dinner tonight.

After last night's awful incident at Luther's, I'm happy to report that I had a much more pleasant experience tonight at The Yard House at La Cantera. Like a lot of other restaurants (except Luther's), this place knew how to treat a guest. Complete 180-turn from last night.

Not only were we greeted at the door, but we were taken to a booth immediately...two points already. Next, as our server approached us at the table, he was quick to ask whether we had any questions about the menu, and even gave my friend Angel advice about which way he preferred the rice...very nice, and another two points. He brought us water right away, and asked for the drink order up front. After taking our order and leaving, I remembered that I we were having more guests so I was easily able to get a hold of him and let him know that I would need more menus, which he brought without hesitation. Another two points. He proceeded to come by every so often and refill my water, as well as asked to replenish our drinks.

This guy had his act together and was very pleasant. Not to mention that the Chicken Enchilada Stack was delicious and very appealing to the eye. This gets another two and a half points from me. So all in all, The Yard House earns a whopping 8.5 out of 10 from me. A little busier, atmosphere-wise, than I expected, but a good clean environment.

Now a good to make up for the bad.

So I get my haircut today, and I have to say that the team at Visible Changes @ La Cantera rock my socks! Alex is awesome as always. I just have to say...do with it what you will, and POOF! Fabulosity!!!! Oh gawd, I hope I didn't just sound like Kimora Lee Simmons. And Imke too! They're always on top of their game, and I can see why their requests are so high.

Got my haircut tonight, and now I'm ready to flaunt my do. I'm also glad they know what to recommend as far as product. It takes all the guess work out. If you guys need stylists or are just looking for a change, try the Visible Changes at La Cantera and ask for Alex or Imke!

Does bad ever get good??

I can't even think of how many times I've been to Luther's, but if I had to count, I'll bet I could do it with one hand. If you haven't yet been there, it's the hamburger joint right across from The Saint on Main St. It's also owned by the same guys who own Heat and the new Sparky's Pub, located in the void left by the previous Silver Dollar Saloon.

Don't get me wrong, Heat and Sparky's are bad ass, but I'm not sure what's going on with Luther's. It seems that their wait staff is always just soooooo inexperienced. I honestly think that they hire patrons from their bars. They're badly groomed, with bad hair, and even worse personalities (no offense, ArJay...he's one of my boys).

So I go there with my friend, Angel tonight to grab a bite to eat after work. We're seated pretty quickly....2 points so far (keep in mind this is on a scale of 10). Next, our drink orders are taken (with no indication on the menu as to whether or not refills are free on soft drinks). I was quick to order a Big Red because for some reason I've been on this Big Red high. Anyway, he had average timing on our drinks....1 point. So he gives us "a minute" to look over the menus...again, but we were ready to order. After collecting our menus, he says the order will be "right out."

So you know, I'm thinking like 10-15 minutes. WRONG! Try 40 minutes later...mind you I have an appointment for a haircut @ 8 and it is now almost a quarter til. We were seated at 7, by the way. Normally, I wouldn't have given a rat's ass had I been eating at Some high-end eatery...but seriously??? Luther's???? I was totally disappointed in the service, yet again. If I go there again, it will probably be for a lack of anything closer, and out of desperation. Guys, really....get better servers. The place is not bad. It's got a great location for eating after a long night of dancing, but that service has got to be kicked up a notch.

My total score for Luther's is a whopping 3 out of 10. Better luck next time, boys. It's a good thing for them my review doesn't really count for anything. Oh, and by the way, what's the difference between their Irish Stew and their Homemade Chilli? Absolutely nothing!

I'm speechless!

I've finally run out of things to say! Ok, I haven't. The fact of the matter is that I'm still stressed out. Classes resume next week, and I'm still trying to dish out my proposal for my thesis. Ugh! It's driving me insane. Sure I'm a good writer, but even I get writer's block. My research has come to a hault. I'm at the point where I don't think I should be sleeping because there's no time, but at the same time, I'm tired, and I'm working the most bizarre hours this week and next.

And the fact that I keep working at a computer with Facebook access isn't helping. I'm alway finding the need to see what everyone is doing, or where they're going. Damn FB!!!! I need to focus. That's it! I just need to focus a little more on my studies and remind myself that I've got a deadline. I guess I can do that. I do work better under deadline pressure.

So tomorrow's Friday, and again I'm working in the evening. Of course I'd get the short end of the stick at work, on the night my BFF is celebrating his birthday. But...I did tell him that I would catch up with him after, just for a little bit. I really do need to concentrate...well, that and I need to work Saturday morning.

So back to work...focus, focus, FOCUS!!!!!

Taking it out on the wrong person.

Tonight I was angry and I think I had a case of displaced anger (I think that's what it's called). I might have overreacted to a text I received from a friend earlier in the evening. So right about dinner time, I decide to go to Sonic (being that it was one of the only places open besides Jack n the Box for a quick bite) and get something to eat for me and Alex.

I could see they were extremely busy. I only saw two people inside and they seemed to be moving as fast as they could, so I didn't mind that it was taking them a while to get to me. I had pressed the red button to order as I first pulled up. It took them about 12 minutes to get to me, but let's rewind just a little bit.

So I'm on the phone with my friend Natalie and I'm explaining to her how busy it seemed there, when suddenly I notice a figure in front of my car. It appeared to be a person wrapped in a blanket. Suddenly the figure moves around the menu and to my window. I look up and it's a woman. I wasn't too sure if she was homeless, but her words to me were something like she was kicked out. From where? I have no clue, but still she was hanging out at Sonic, and it was a little sad.

The woman asks me if I would buy her a cup of coffee. I couldn't deny her this request, afterall had she been homeless, she would have eaily asked me for money. I asked what size and she said a small would be fine. I said that would be ok, but that it was taking them some time to get to my order. She slowly walked away and finally a voice over the spearbox asked for my order. I ordered the brown bag special with cheese and no onions and told them to give me tots instead of fries with two cherry limeades. As they gave me the total (mind you I'm still on the phone with my friend) I quickly remembered the coffee, so I pressed the button again and asked that a small coffee be added to my order.

So minutes pass and I'm still on the phone with Natalie. Suddenly this woman in a blanket comes to my window again and this time seems a little upset, judging by the look on her face. As I look at her, she says to me, "If you didn't want to order me coffee, all you had to do was say so."

I don't know what came over me, but I became angry. I was angry that she would accuse me of lying about the whole coffee thing. I looked at her in the face, and said "I ordered your coffee! It's not my fault they're taking so long." Then I paused for a second, and without hesitation continued, "You know what?? I don't want to order your stupid coffee anymore and I don't want to feel sorry for you!"

With that, I rolled up my window and had to catch my breath for a second. My friend Natalie had been on speaker the whole time, so the next thing I remember was her shouting "Who are you talking to and what's going on??"

I told her to hang on for a bit while I pressed the red button again on the menu. When the guy's voice came on, I told him to cancel the coffee request because it had been for a homeless woman who apparently thought I was kidding abnout ordering it for her. My friend Natalie laughed, and I told her I couldn't believe I said this to the woman, but she made me angry.

Was this wrong of me? Should I be feeling bad about this? Was I still upset from the text I had gotten earlier that evening. Perhaps it was wrong. Perhaps I did feel bad. Perhaps I was still angry from the text. Point is, it was Christmas. A friend of mine said I shouldn't worry about it. I realized what I had done and it's in the past. He said I should do something nice for someone else now. Perhaps he's right, but I think this is still going to stay in the back of my mind. I don't know that I'm naturally a mean person. It's not my nature.